Uh Huh!!

It’s been a long time that I didn’t type anything in English.

Recently, my life is a little bit chaotic.

Everything is massed up in the same time,

made all my families ridded on the marry-go-round,

everyone round and round and round all the time.

Fortunately, my grandpa gets a lot better; he may go home in these two days,

I wish everything will be fine.

Now, I am standing in the intersection of my life again,

I have no idea about my life, myself, my … everything.

I wondered, is that because I am too lucky that I don’t have to worried about money,

or because I don’t even know what I want, what I desire to hold in my hand,

or worse, that I am losing the ability to have a dream of my life.

Life is not easy…

I went to Calgary and Hualien to chase my dream

What I got is nothing but just memories.

I am a naïve childlike wiredo.

I never deny it.

Sometimes I wonder how come my parents has this wired child in the family.

I have their blood, I have their look.

I don’t have my dad’s responsible attitude;

I don’t have my mom’s daring and resolution.

What I got?

Weakness of doing anything

Sickness of any point of view

I like to say that

“If I have nothing, I have nothing to lose.”

The point is

I still hold something in my hands and I couldn’t let go.

I don’t dare to let it go.

If there was a day that I really have nothing,

The first thing I do is go to Calgary and never regret.